Love is a beautiful thing.
Even if sometimes it doesn’t go so well with us, it leaves us with lessons and leaves us a little wiser.
That’s beautiful, right?
One lesson that love taught me is that you can never be enough for those who do not deserve you.
It doesn’t matter how hard you try and how much you sacrifice to please them, YOU WILL NEVER BE ENOUGH.
Whenever you told me to change my dress and change my hairstyle because it doesn’t match my forehead, to change this and that, I thought that was love.
Whenever you told me that I was getting fat, that I should try and do something about my tummy, whenever you told me you like light girls, I felt I wanted to change the ME for you.
I lost myself trying to find you.
I slowly lost confidence in myself. I felt I was not a woman worth enough.
I became a servant, and you the great master.
A servant who does not do anything at their own consent until it is approved by his master.
When everything came to an end, I was left with a lesson in my mind,
‘Love yourself first before letting someone else love you.’
Emmah is an educational student from The University of Nairobi, Kenya. She loves expressing her thoughts about the world in writing.